Just call me Lil Jon. 3.30.17


That was me yesterday. Trying to pump myself up. My $5,810 worth of drugs came in on Tuesday and I started two shots a day yesterday. Here’s the loot:IVF drugs

This is everything I’m supposed to need up to our actual embryo transfer. There’s one giant needle in there for the pre-retrieval “trigger” shot….BAH…I won’t pay attention to that one yet 🙂

I am doing micro dose Lupron (this drug prevents premature ovulation) twice a day for two days, and then tomorrow evening I start adding in shots of Gonal-f (this one stimulates your ovaries to produce multiple mature eggs) and hCG (this one helps my eggs to mature). I also add on an antibiotic to help reduce any chance of infection throughout this process.

But back to the night before shot day 1. I had a panic attack. I was watching the instructional videos, reading all of the paper work, stumbled upon some other blogs…I was so overwhelmed! I had yet to really cry about this whole process, so the reality of starting the drugs set in. Poor Dawson, he followed me to the shower and stayed in the bathroom the whole time, making sure I was okay. Then he sent me the sweetest words of encouragement the morning of shot #1. These shots have to be 12 hours apart, so we figured the most convenient timing was 9am and 9pm. That way, with the evening events we have going on, we won’t have to rush home.

SO, I MADE THE SHOT MY BITCH (whoops, sorry). I read a few tips about icing it, playing soothing music, yada yada. I found that music actually distracted me. I took deep, slow breaths and I feel like that helped the most. I prepared everything, took a deep breath in, and on my breath out…stuck that baby in. The pain of the needle is very little, a teeny little pinch. I actually disliked pulling the needle out way more! I instantly started itching, so I reached out to my nurse and she suggested using a bit of hydrocortisone cream after the injection. That did the trick! No more discomfort.

The icing….personally, 5 minutes of an ice pack on my stomach was more uncomfortable than 20 seconds of a pinch! Also, when I did the icing last night, I bled from the shot and was left with this war wound:

Day 1 Bruise

Ok, it looks worse in person, but that big bruise compared to the teeny size of the needle poke…woah! I’m not sure if icing and bleeding are related, but I don’t think I’ll be icing anymore. I will save that for the intramuscular shot coming along later…

All in all, I’m impressed with myself. You CAN give yourself the shots! Sit down while you do it. Breathe slowly. Keep it quiet around you. It’ll go quick 🙂 I think being in control of the shot process also helps. Waiting on someone else to prep it and shove it into me would only add to the anxiety.

Of course, ask me again tomorrow night after I’ve done three in a row….






Check lists are the best lists. 3.27.17

I feel like we should hashtag that…should we hashtag that?! #checklistsarethebestlists

IVF orientation is done, procedure and meds have all been paid for (go visit my “Our Real Cost of IVF” to read a little more about preparations for that), and my uterus is beautiful! Those were the final ticks to our “IVF go date” checklist!

Our meds arrive tomorrow and I start my 12 days of injections on Wednesday. The good new is, no more birth controooool! The bad news is, shots. I’m thinking I’m going to go with the “hold ice to your belly for a minute before injecting” method so that I’m good and numb before the first stick. I don’t hate shots, but I have fainted a time or two, so the idea of giving them to myself is a bit overwhelming.

The first two days of shots are a morning and night injection of Lupron to stop my body from trying to ovulate. Those have to be timed 12 hours apart, which makes me a little anxious, since my schedule is inconsistent and I tend to have lots of evening events. So for 12 days…sorry guys, I’m gonna be a homebody!

Then I start with two more injections at night of Gonal-F and low dose hCG. That’s four a day total. Shew. I will also be taking an antibiotic twice a day to lower the chance of any infections during my retrieval and transfer process.

I love checklists….so here’s what I made:

Shots Calendar

I love crossing things out, ah the sense of accomplishment! So I’m posting this bad boy on my fridge to help me make it through week one of injections. Week two will include some traveling with injections, so that’s a little nerve wracking!

I have to say…we are SO ready to get this started that we feel as though time is moving so slow. But I am so nervous for the unknowns. This is it! This is IVF! I will go back to the doctor on the 4th to monitor how the meds are working. My emotions are up and down, so I just keep telling myself, “This is it. We got this. This is our story”. Ok Dawson’s the one who keeps saying that this is our story and that’s really cute so CREDIT TO HIM.




Making sandwich bags trendy. 3.7.17

I went to visit my BFF this past weekend and her ADORABLE 10 month old. My BFF is the best. She lets me vent, she gives me real advice, she’s hilarious even when she’s not trying, and she makes a damn cute kid. It was a wonderful weekend of being spoiled by her family and holding this babe as much as I could.


She’s excited cause we’re MAKIN’ BABIES.

We made a trip to Marhsall’s, and Jess spied a cute pill box…”Hey! Sara, I’ll get you this and you don’t have to carry around that Ziploc anymore!” She was referring to my supplements I brought along for the trip. This is my new daily intake of supplements:


Whadda we got here:

-75mg of DHEA (not DHA, as I asked my doc). This helps to support balanced hormone levels.

-400mg of CoQ10. CoQ10 is found is every cell of your body. So with IVF, they hope that this will kick up the energy in your cells so that your reproductive system is in high gear. Bonus: it helps protect your heart, brain, and skeletal muscles!

-4 giant, all natural, whole-food prenatals. Gotta have the best! (thanks to my wonderful sister-in-law for this one….side note, she’s been a major support system for this journey! THANK YOU PAIGE!).

-My daily biotin and allergy meds…because I’m balding and seasonal allergies.

It goes without saying, do not take any supplements unless directed by your doctor. I was taking some additional vitamins, but my doctor approved the above list, and everything else will fall by the wayside during this process. I’m pretty sure the DHEA is giving me the bubble guts, but after a few weeks, that has slowed down (just putting it all out there, ya’ll).

And if you can manage to find a super cute pill box at Marshall’s, even better! My horse pills wouldn’t fit, so making the sandwich baggy a new trend.






The flying sperm. 3.6.17

Is that a catchy title?! Am I getting this blog thing down?! Are you interested?!

Right now, Dawson’s frozen sperm from Florida are flying back to us! They’ll be delivered to the clinic today where they will await my eggs.

The weirdest thing is they’re five years old…so cool, they’re the sperm of a 22 year old. But they’re the sperm of a 22 year old with cancer, so say all the prayers and cross all of your toes that they’re healthy!

So we’ve made it to this point of establishing a real IVF timeline. Right now, we are waiting on my March period (go figure, I’m two days late on my very-well-tracked period calendar). Once it starts, I start birth control! How backwards is that? Birth control helps the doctor control my egg production, so that they can maximize my eggs for the egg retrieval that’ll happen in a month or so. Also something about how it makes the lining of your uterus thicker, yada yada, baby making.

I’m continually amazed by this process, and am really grateful that it exists for couples like us. Did I ever expect to need to go through it?!…no. But as I tell Dawson each night how nervous I am that it’s not going to work, we’re going to waste our money, we’re going to be so upset and stressed out during the process…and “you have to give me SHOTS”…he says “it’s our story. We would regret it even more if we didn’t do it. If it doesn’t work, we go adopt an Asian kid because it’ll look like me!” (Dawson’s not actually Asian).

So I am really excited to take that first BC pill, go to “orientation” where we hand all of our money away, learn how to take shots, and set our egg retrieval date. Things are getting REAL guys…




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